A Bad Hair Day...

Goodness gracious me, what a day! An avalanche of bad news, bad conversations, bad encounters -- today...

Bad Hair Day 1 - Prison Stories.

Finally some news from Kamel - news that don't make sense, but that really make sense. Kamel who is now in his third year in prison, with no charges, no trial, and a rapidly deteriorating health, keeps being transferred from one location to another.
They told us get a lawyer. So we did. His wife borrowed money, and so did we.
The lawyer's fees so far totals 6 million Iraqi dinars in exchange for his so-called release.
First, the guys who run the prison, even though it is an American prison and Kamel is under American custody, are the sectarian Shiites sons of bitches. They asked for money too, so they got it. Each month they say - more money and we will release him, and each month more money is paid and Kamel is still rotting away in an overcrowded cell. The man is over 67 years old for God's sake!

The lawyer said - give me more and I will guarantee his release, he got more and Kamel is still rotting, withering away... His wife has gone bezerk and has sold ALL of her furniture and personal belongings, even her bed !!!

Everytime we think that's it -Kamel will be released, they come up with another story. This time they are accusing him of participating in an insurgents attack that took place 6 months ago !
He cried out - For heaven's sake how can I be part of any insurgency when I have been behind bars for 3 years !!!

I believe that the lawyer is cheating us and I believe that they are finding all kinds of false justifications to keep Kamel in detention and that he will never be released, whether he is under American custody or a Shiite one.

We are expecting the worst. I am totally heart broken. Kamel is such a kind, God fearing man and has done good all of his life. Done good to his family, his neighbours, his community...He has helped countless people expecting nothing in return...

As for Omar, with a name like Omar - typical Sunni name, do you think anyone dares ask about his whereabouts or if he still alive ?! Last heard, he is "somewhere in the South" in some prison there, under Shiite custody. We keep getting mixed information, one minute they tell us he died and one minute they tell us he is alive. Omar has been arrested with no charges and no trial, the only alibi is his name - OMAR. He was 17 when he was arrested. His mother talks to herself all day long. I am so aggrieved for them and for us.

Bad Hair Day 2 - Lost Homes.

Since we lost the house, and that we will never recuperate it, it was decided that we sell it. Why let these sectarian whores live there for free !
Now getting a lawyer and an estate agent - honest ones, in today's Baghdad is impossible. The old familiar names we were acqainted with, no longer exist. They were either killed or are exiled somewhere. So you never know whom you will fall upon. The lawyer in all likelihood will turn out to be another sectarian whore ditto for the real estate agent. They will first rip you off and swindle you in the end, this we know already. It has happened to so many people who found themselves in a similar predicament, some did not even cash in their money -- so we are expecting the same.

Furthermore, we need to give a proxy to someone to receive the money, should the sale go through. Since gangs are roaming Baghdad and every day we hear a story of someone being stolen at gun point or kidnapped for money and YES IT IS SILL HAPPENING, we fear for the person whom we will give the proxy to. So this is another mind fuck we need to solve as soon as possible and frankly I do not know how. It is bad enough losing one's home and now this. Everything is difficult, complicated, dangerous, energy and life draining in Baghdad. And I fully blame America and its whore ally Iran for the situation we find ourselves in, today.

Bad Hair Day 3 - Over a Drink.

Seeing that I am in such a state, R suggested we go out for a drink - so " maybe you'll get a new perspective on things and your mood will change " she added.

I accepted. I needed to get away from my mom's stoic, iron silence hiding a drawn out, sad face that appears to have aged a hundred years...
Again, I feel heart broken when I see her that way, heart broken and angry, angry at my own powerlessness...and raging at anything American.

So we go to this place and we order our drinks. R. receives a call, and R's calls are no ordinary ones. They are long, protracted conversations. R. excused herself and I was left alone at the bar. Two seats down, was sitting a huge pink elephant. He looked English or American. These people are so nauseating to me that I did not even want to look in his direction. I wanted to obliterate him from my optical field... but,

But the pink elephant struck a conversation, a stupid, idiotic opening line...

- Excuse me, how do I get to X ?
- Me without even looking at him - take a cab. Yes he was American, from the East coast.
- Nice country you got here.
- Not my country.
- So where are you from ?
- Next door.
- Meaning ?
- Eyeraq
- So what do what you think of Obama, looks promising, right ?
- If you consider the handing over of Iraq to Iran as promising, then yes it is promising.
- Iran ? What has Iran got to do with it ?

So I found myself having to explain it all over again, to another dumb American.

- Geez, folks back home are unaware of all of that. You know my brother served in Iraq in the 90's. So what is the difference between Iranians and Iraqis ?
- Layla losing her patience. Iranians are Aryans and Iraqis are Semites, for the most part Arabs.
- Kinda like Irish Catholic and Protestants ?
- Not quite...
- So what is the best scenario for you ?
- That you scum leave Iraq and that you take with you all the filth that rode on your tanks...Maliki, Sadr, Badr, the whole lot...and that you be tried for war crimes, crimes against Humanity.
- The pink elephant coughed when he heard the word war crimes and swiftly changed the subject by asking -- am not familiar with any of these names, who are they ?
- They are the ones ruling Iraq today and which you have put into place. They are all affiliated to Iran.
- Folks back home don't know all of that.
- Folks back home can't be bothered to find out about anything. You guys live in la la land...
- So if the Americans leave and those guys stay in power what will happen then?
- The Resistance, what you call insurgency will finish them off.
- Resistance ? you mean the terrorists ?
- Let me ask you something. You live in X neighborhood in New England. Someone comes and knocks your house down, kills your father, arrests your brother, rapes your wife, what will you do ?
- I will seek legitimate means to defend my family and myself.
- OK, what if the whole neighborhood is invaded and occupied that way, what will you do ?
- I will join the rest and push out the invader.
- And would that be legitimate in your eyes ?
- Hell, yes!
- So there is your answer about Resistance.

The pink elephant frowned. He did not like the logic even though he found it hypothetically legitimate had all the above happened to him.

- Why are you frowning in such a perplexed manner? Are you shocked that am not grateful to you guys ? I have presented you with facts.
- Well, am not saying you're lying, but back home we hear none of that. That is not the stuff we read.
- Am an Iraqi and am telling what has happened and what is happening, are you going to deny my reality so it can "fit" what you read back home ???
- No, this is not what I meant, but...
- Listen, there are no buts here. Not only you guys need to get out and take the vermin with you, but you are to pay and reconstruct with your own money and with your own efforts all the damage you wrought. It is called reparations...You are to repair everything you destroyed. But however much you repair, you will never repair our lives and the lives of millions of innocent ones on whom you have waged your war of occupation based on LIES. You are a DISHONEST, DECEITFUL PEOPLE. Not just government but people. You are the people of the LIE. You and your stinking English buddies...

The pink elephant was not too happy hearing that, he excused himself and walked out...Finally !

R. made it back.

- I noticed that you were having a conversation with this guy - anything interesting ?
- Was trying to get a new perspective on things and change my mood as you suggested.
- And ?
- Same shit, still a bad hair day...

Painting : Iraqi artist, Ihsan Al-Khatib.


LAYLA where the hell are you?
Layla Anwar said…
Ya Hussain,

In Hell...
Very SAD hair days...my dear Layla. Re your conversation with the pink elephant, not only idiotic Bush and idiotic Blair were behind this VERY unjust and cruel invasion of Iraq, but our ex-idiotic "Ansar" (as idiotic Bush called him...). A fact that I and many Spaniards feel very ashamed of. Thank Whoever that when we changed governments, Spanish troops left Iraq but we're still in Afghanistan... OK, as you say, let's see if bloggers, like zillion drops in the sea, can change things in that troubled part of the world. Hugs, M.
Anonymous said…
Israeli's Rabbi's, like Iran's mullas and America's White priests depend on teaching their gullable worshipers that killing Humans will not send them to hell, so they will all get a Very bad hair day - they worship their old men and their holy costumes even if they are bald faced liars.

The tactic of keeping Kamel and Omar in jail is designed to break your spirit, same as the Israelis do to Palestinians, the Nazis did it and it served them well. I can not help but I pray for the Iraqi people and pray that God take your revenge to all those involved and pray that God take your revenge on all the their countries to.

I talk to Americans to sometimes, it takes a very long time for them to get past the propaganda that controls their brains and thoughts - but Palastianians had the same problem with many other Arabs to in the 70s, the Zionist propaganda machine was much more powerful back then. Do not waste your time with American republicans, their zionst masters have them thinking of Iraq as theirs by right of God already, and Iraqis are no more than beasts - the democrats are no better but they are currently graced by being hated by the right wing propaganda machine, the poor dumb idiots want their troops out of Iraq and have no idea why Obama can not do that - I think of it as watching America turn into another Israel.

The Iraqi Kurds hair style might look just as well groomed as the Shia's hair style, no bad days for them these days - but look deeper, their American and Israel hair stylists left little pieces of human feces sticking out, and as time goes by they need bigger pieces of zionist shit in their hair or they think they are having a bad hair day to. They both think that they have a right to kill, jail and exile Iraqis and they both think it is right and holy to help the American invaders and their death squads kill, jail and exile more - so look at their Kurds hair and the Shiias hair and you will see the feces they are so proud of - I like my hair feces free, I would much rather be bald, really.

Hair - that is a nice movie :)


Sorry, not much comfort for those with friends in the zionists jail - but I believe it best to meet God with bad hair than with the blood soaked hands and shit soaked hair of those that hurt you and your friends, till then a bit more hair spray might help :)

Anonymous said…
"Not my country"

Your fellow-Arabs should be bending over backwards in order to make you feel at home in what is just another arbitrarily divided piece of your common homeland, AND THEY SHOULD BE AIDING THE RESISTANCE IN IRAQ BY FINANCIAL AND INFORMATIONAL MEANS INSTEAD OF SITTING ON THEIR ASSES DREAMING OF MTV, FACEBOOK AND HOLLYWOOD.

Shame on their passivity.
Anonymous said…
@Al-Hussain Arshad Yassin,


We urge You to start seriously considering taking up politics, possibly with Ms. Layla Anwar as Your advisor.

The Iraqi/Arab cause needs a new unifying charismatic leader NOW.

Respectfully Yours.
Anonymous said…
There is that female lawyer, Bushra Khalil. She's a Shiite (hence the thugs might leave her alone) AND she's also a fierce nationalist (pro-Saddam not pro-Sadr). Get her to defend Kamel. She's quite capable to do it for free, for glory only. Good luck.
Anonymous said…
Are You shure the "pink elephant" emerged during the 1:rst drink ...I mean.. usually those elephants appears after ...say
6,7,8..9,10 drinks!

I have a question for You.

I think your writings has good literary potential and it is a shame if nothing more is made of it..
so.. do you mind if I investigate the possibility of making a literary edition from your writings..?

I know people to talk to..

To my judgement it might be a good oportunity to increase the struggle for Iraq...

Your words/reflections your stands on and understanding of the warsituation would get you your badly needed wings...

Take care

Anonymous said…
A MUST read article:

REMEMBER - Malcolm Lagauche

Anonymous said…
And another, related to your bad hair day, Layla:

Prisoners occupy Iraqis’ minds as Eid approaches -
Fatih Abdulsalam, Azzaman


My thoughts and prayers with all these innocents who are suffering in Iraq's prisons today.

In solidarity.
Layla Anwar said…

Hello, Yes I remember very well how the Spanish people kicks Aznar's butt. I said to myself then, if the spaniards can do it so can the bloody brits and the yankees, but of course nothing of that sort was forthcoming. Guess what, both these "people" voted for Blair the liar and Bush the psychopath TWICE, 8 years tenure each. Fuck them both.
I hope your people will do the same regarding the spanish troops in Afghanistan, it will get "hotter" there, trust me on this one.
Hugs to you too.
Layla Anwar said…

You had me laughing. Would you like to become my hairdresser ? lol
Layla Anwar said…

You said it all.
Layla Anwar said…
We the people,

You want me to advise someone 20 years younger than me? What do you think I am, aunt Irma from Cosmopolitan agony column ?
Layla Anwar said…

I do not share the same feelings about Bushra Khalil as you do. Besides she was generously remunerated by Raghad.
Layla Anwar said…

Trust me, I was only through one drink and the pink elephant appeared...Unless am seeing all rosy, but he was there for sure...lol
Thanks for your suggestion, by all means, get the ball rolling if you wish. And we shall discuss.
Layla Anwar said…
Dear Lil' Deer,

Thanks for the links, I read them already. Also check out the latest on Iraqi prisoners from Truthout via Uruknet. 80% of them are Soooneees...Bless you and yours.
Anonymous said…
"I do not share the same feelings about Bushra Khalil as you do"

I don't have any "feelings" about her, I just observe facts and deduce the obvious. She defended the President, therefore she must be a good Arab. And if she was brave enough to defend the one whom her fellow-Shia call Ze Tyrant, why not a simple citizen jailed with no charges ?

Though, I'd be curious to know what your different feelings are. You did help me see people through the appearances many a time.
well...i dont think i need advice from someone older than me 20 years, because people their age do things the old classical way, the way my grandfather and grandmother use to resolve issues. i prefer taking advice from someone closer to my age, we will be resolving things the modern way, the new world order way, the americanized way if you may call it.
Ian said…
Layla, your explanation for why someone would join a resistance is very good and I will use that example often. Probably within the next 48 hours I'd bet. The concept that one man's freedom fighter is another man's insurgent should not be hard for Americans to understand being that our past is full of examples of resistance--early "Americans" vs. Britain, North American Indians vs. North American settlers, North vs. South, slave revolts, et al. Clearly we have forgotten....Fe eman allah.
Layla Anwar said…

Why not a simple citizen ?
There are 100'000 simple citizens all sunnis in American and Shiite custody. Do you think Bushra Khalil will do that for free ? Where is the glory for her ?!!!
As I said, all of Saddam's lawyers were remunerated.
Layla Anwar said…
Ya Hussain,

The Americanized way, the young way huh ? Will that include starbucks and mc.donalds by any chance...
Me believes there are still a good deal of issues you can learn from your "grandmother". HA!
Layla Anwar said…

Well said --- how will it go down amongst your army buddies though ?
Will you not be considered a traitor ?!!! Or is the mission already accomplished ?
Anonymous said…
Hussain Arshad Yassin said...
"i don't think i need advice from someone older than me 20 years"

Oh, really ?

What if your Uncle was still alive and gave you advice, would you ignore it ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

"we will be resolving things"

We who ? You and your college friends ? Or are you planning to - finally ! - take your rightful place in the Party and, God pleasing, in the Resistance ?

"the americanized way"


Lion cub, if you only want to have fun, stay as you are, but if you also want to contribute to something in this world and maybe be remembered by the posterity, better you look up to those who have more mane's hair than you around their faces.

Layla Anwar said…
Oops, me thinks it is going to get "hot" here. LOL.

i appreciate your advice and consern about the party, iraq, my nation, not having hair arround my face (but i do have some down there if you wana check), my identity and my uncle.

but i am very sorry i have to decline your request. if you are a female i strictly advice that sticking a dildo, and a vibrator in your vahjayjay or your back door is much more better for you as a female than preaching into my head. and if you were a male, i would be honored and delighted to rape you but not before you wax the hair you have there thats more than the hair i have on my face.

oh and befor ei forget, i could send you a check to purchase the latest AMERICANIZED dildo and vibrator on my expense.

Layla Anwar said…
Wohooo, I knew it was going to get "hot"....LOL.
Anonymous said…
Back in 2000-2003 I worked for a Jewish Newspaper in Chicago. Got everything off the Interfax from Al Jazeera and AP and other words. Yeah a Roman Catholic working at a Jewish Newspaper. Figure that out. But I remember that after 9/11--you know, almost 3000 people killed, our entire airspace infrastructure shut down for a week, the world finance center shut down for just as long, hurting the entire modern world--the Bush Doctrine came into being. Namely that we as a United States would not let aggression stand against our sovereign soil. So we invaded Afghanistan. I myself encouraged this move because I would say that even Iraqis realize the zealotry of Jihadis like Bin Laden et al...It is difficult to declare war on a country that you just 10 years earlier helped liberate from athiest infedels.

But despite our own delayed response to intelligence to capture Bin Laden, we let him slip through our hands. And it is unfortunate that Iraq was an opportune target for redirecting this fury. You must realize that at least politically, Iraq poses a tremendous threat to our ally Israel. It is ironic though that Iran poses a much more significant threat in Israeli terms. However it cannot be disproven that very high levels of Iraqi political influence did commit genocide, such as Milosevic in Southeast Europe. That alone in my mind is enough to depose a dictator.

I find it also ironic that many people who have not been accustomed to the freedoms of speech, feel threatened by the duality of good/evil it allows. However, it does also allow for choice, to avoid the evil, and hold dear the good.

These reasons alone in my heart, encourage my belief of liberty worldwide. But freedom is relative, socially, economically, politically. It takes dep courage to embrace complete and total freedom in the physical world, and yet still have the temperament to deny the baser human qualities of lust, envy, greed, avarice...As opposed to killing ones' self to prove riteousness, I believe it takes more honor to live on in spite of the omnipresence of sin.

I did however believe from the onset that an invasion of Iraq, despite deposing Hussein--something that I am personally happy for the same as Americans were happy at the loss of Hitler and Milosevic--yet I can foresee the tuemoil wehave caused with your neighbor Iran. I am sorry for the destruction. I am sorry for the lack of power and blackouts and the lack of clean fuels and water. I am sorry for the abuses by malignant individual soldiers. However, my grandfather was from Hamburg and was a Wehrmacht soldier in World War Two, and the Britons leveled his entire city to concrete dust, killed many of his friends and family in bombings, and rendered his own brother mentally disabled. However, he still came to the United States and believed enough in freedom to see the positive qualities of this country. I just ask you reading this to not discount us "Americans" as uneducated. In fact we care immensely about our global neighbors. Ask yourself when was the last time an Israeli came to ask you about your culture, or give you pause with consideration. I know that sounds like "talking down" to you. Fact is, there is much of your culture I hope to embrace through equal exchange of ideas. I love sufism, I love sumerian history, I love the art and architecture of your homeland. That our long dead ancestors disagreed as to the importance of each other's culture, does not mean you and I must perpetuate such discourse.
Anonymous said…
Tony, another jewnazified ameronazi...

did u say "I am sorry for the destruction. I am sorry for the lack of power and blackouts and the lack of clean fuels and water. I am sorry for the abuses by malignant individual soldiers."

did u say YOU are sorry? are u serious? am i reading correctly? so a destruction of 5 years, the destruction of an ancient country more than 7 thousand years, raping its women, children, handicap, poluting its water, killing entire families, making orphans out of iraqis, giving us cancer because of your fucked up uranium. and now you sum it up with one word "sorry".

you know what, you can print your sorry words, and all the americans sorry words on toilet paper and use it clean your asses. oh and please do use the hose. i assume u still havent reached this level of evolution to use the hose, i suspect you all say just a tissue would do.
Anonymous said…
Hussain Arshad Yassin,



THAT's the way I want you, Lion, THAT's the way you've got to be when faced to the barbarous hordes from America and Iran, with that FIRE in your tongue and your gun and your heart, the Arab Revolutionary way, NOT that milk-and-water, politically correct, "goody-goody" MASK you wore in your previous comment !

God, thank you for granting me the privilege to trigger off and witness such a mind-blowing, awe-inspiring transformation !

My very best wishes and most admired regards...

A Girl from France
Layla Anwar said…
Yalla, it's definitely getting HOT! LOL
Anonymous said…
and i suppose that if we left your prior leaders in power you would be able to talk like this to whom ever you pleased, gone to school to learn (speaking to the females in the commments), and idle threats on a blog comment page don't scare anyone...I may not be the most educated nor the most under educated, but i know right from wrong and having served over there and not raped or killed childern, (by the way casualty reports from the un are much lower than what you are stating), i'd greatly appreciate you all shutting the hell up and getting on with your lives as best as possible becuase none of us want to be over there and away from our families, but we have to be because some of your so called freedom fighters had to come over and damage our territory we're returning the favor...where's our reparations by the way, ohh that's right we get none but that's okay cause we can take care of ourselves...Just get your "freedom fighter" to stop blowing everyone up and we'll stop raiding and killing people. Then we can work on the important tasks such as schooling setting up medical care and retooling your corrupt ass government...thank you
Layla Anwar said…

You said in a previous comment on another post that you stumbled upon my blog looking for Samira Shabandar. Why are you looking for her ?What is this obssession you idiots have ?!
I did not bother and will not bother to reply to you in details, yours is regurgitated stuff from 2003. Lame, senseless, superficial, lacks honesty and intellectually shallow.

But let me sum it up for you in one clear sentence -
You don't want your buddies to get blown up in Iraq, get the FUCK OUT and take the Iranian whores that rode on your tanks WITH YOU- Get it, or should I draw a picture for you ?!

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